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This is very good song that goes along with adolescence, i’m sure a lot of us girls have went through some of what this song talks about. It really hit me cause when I was a teenager I did all I could to fit in…if you know my past I suffered from a disease called Anorexia. Listen to this song and just look back at your teenage years and see if any of these lyrics mean anything to you.
Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
Says she wants to look that way
But her hair isn’t straight her body isn’t fake
And she’s always felt overweight
Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
That beauty is within your heart
And you were made with such care your skin your body and your hair
Are perfect just the way they are
There could never be a more beautiful you
Don’t buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you
Little girl twenty-one the things that you’ve already done
Anything to get ahead
And you say you’ve got a man but he’s got another plan
Only wants what you will do instead
Well little girl twenty-one you never thought that this would come
You starve yourself to play the part
But I can promise you there’s a man whose love is true
And he’ll treat you like the jewel you are
So turn around you’re not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It’s not too late you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forget
Can disappear they can all be washed away
By the one who’s strong can right your wrongs
Can rid your fears dry all your tears
And change the way you look at this big world
He will take your dark distorted view
And with His light He will show you truth
And again you’ll see through the eyes of a little girl
This is Rod’s favorite song and was played at his funeral today. I hope you all enjoy it. It is a very powerful song and means a lot to Rod’s family and friends.
If I leave here tomarrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be traveling on now
There’s too many places I’ve gotta see
If I stay here with you girl
Things just couldn’t be the same
Cause I’m as free as a bird now
And this bird you cannot change
Oooh ooh ooh
And the bird you cannot change
And this bird you cannot change
Lord knows I cannot change
Bye bye its been sweet love
Though this feeling I cannot change
Please don’t take this so badly
Cause lord knows i’m to blame
If I stay here with you girl
Things just couldn’t be the same
Cause i’m as free as a bird now
And this bird you cannot change
ooh oh oh
And the bird you cannot change
And this bird you cannot change
Lord knows I can’t change
Lord help me I can’t chaaange
Lord I can’t change
Wont you fly high free bird
i got a call from my mom today and she left a message saying “call me when you get this”. So I called and my jaw hit the floor….one of my dads best friends died this morning and when i was talking to him he had to tell me to hold on a sec…i knew he was crying and sad i could hear in his voice. It breaks my heart to hear my dad so sad. This family friend is one that i have known since i was born. It is going to be rough for the family and friends. My dad said just last saturday they were all playing golf and now this. I couldnt help but shed some tears with my dad. I was going to go over and see my parents but I know my dad doesnt want me to see him like this so I will give him his time to reflect and get his composer. I hate hearing these things it makes me so sad, and i feel totally helpless for my dad. i know he knows that i am here for him and my mom but i am not going to rush things. This was a very dear friend that we lost today….he was only 57. Who knew that 28 was middle age. I breaks my heart. My prayers are with the family and friends. I know God will take good care of Rod and he will be looking down on us with a big smile.
this song was one of my faves…it explains alot about my life the last few years. I dont have a video but I do have the lyrics and a Youtube link. Enjoy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UDdxY3tXHt0
Chevelle – Send the pain below
I liked, having hurt
So send the pain below where I need it,
You used to beg me to take care of things,
And smile at the thought of me failing.
But long before, having hurt,
I’d send the pain below,
I’d send the pain below.
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
(I’d send the pain below…)
Much like suffocating,
(I’d send the pain below…)
You used to run me away,
All while laughing.
Then cry about that fact,
’til I returned.
But long before, having hurt,
I’d send the pain below,
I’d send the pain below.
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
(I’d send the pain below…)
Much like suffocating,
(I’d send the pain below…)
Much like suffocating.
I can’t feel my chest,
Need more, drop down,
Closing in.
I can’t feel my chest,
Drop down.
I liked, having hurt.
So send the pain below,
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating) <i>[I liked]
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating) <i>[Having hurt]
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating)
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating)
So send the pain below.
My last day at cch was 06/11/09 and i am still looking for a job. The job market is tough and it makes me feel like i cant do anything better with my life. i have thoughts of going back to CCH but those are not very good thoughts. I absolutely hate that place with a passion especially the department that i was in for over 6 years. They dont realize what they have lost and if they gain a new employee then so be it but my time and effort there was never compensated and i was just pawn in the corporate industry. I dont think I will ever work for a place like that again
Ever since I quit my job i have felt the feeling of loneliness and worthlessness. Only because the job market is soo tough. I even have to sale my BMW cause i cant afford the payments. I am selling it for 14,900 as is. i have no health insurance so if i get in an accident im screwed. I scared cause this feeling of the unknowing is getting to me. I wish the perfect job would come to me and i can be happy to go to work every morning. i havent been sleeping very well or eating very well i just have this lump in my stomach and it is not going away. I pray to God every night that something will happen but so far nothing. I am just venting…i dont want sympathy by any means i just want to be successful and happy. i think its going to be a long road ahead but as long as i can keep my spirits up i think i will be ok.
I miss all my co workers and my friends. I have been pretty down lately and I apologize for the lack of communication. Please forgive me!
Love you all!
Meri
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