times are tough

i get down about myself and the decisions i make or made. im down right now cause i do not have anything to look forward too. my job meant a lot to me but the company changed soo much that i just didnt belong there anymore. i wish the company would see that they have lost a great employee but that is just wishful thinking. i pray to God each night that i find something to make me happy again and to look forward too. I dont like getting in fights with my spouse cause when we do i just dont feel the need to fight. when he brings up the words “im done” it doesnt phase me at all. I dont get sad or heartbroken because i refuse to let him do that to me again. i pretty much just say “ok” “what do you want me to do?” i even asked if i should start packing. I wasnt afraid. life goes on and i refuse to be unhappy and caged. i talked to my mom a lot now and she sees what i see. its just a matter of time.